Coronatine Adventures – “Do the next right thing” (Friday, March 27th)

Despite my best efforts I am still bombarded by thoughts about being trapped in this strange limbo for forever. In me this produces incessant sleepiness during the day and sleepless during the night. And also eating large amounts of calories that I’m not really hungry for – they just taste really really hit good and give my brain these little hits of dopamine. No lie, I have a bowl of cookies and cream ice cream in front of me right now and I’m making alfredo pasta for dinner tonight.

Intellectually, I know that nothing lasts forever. I mentioned this in yesterday’s post, and knowing that does encourage me to keep enjoying all of the things still in my life. And yet… I keep thinking about tomorrow and about Sunday and about whether I will magically be hired back on Monday after being furloughed for a week. And I don’t know about any of those days. I only know about what is happening right now on Friday, March 27th at 3:58pm.

I’m still furloughed from work.

The school is still closed.

We are still ordered to “Shelter in Place”

That’s where I’m at on Friday, March 27th at 3:58pm and that’s all I have to go on.

Author Glennon Doyle Melton said in her book Love Warrior:

“Do the next right thing, one thing at a time.”

Do the next right thing, one thing at a time. Glennon used to repeat the phrase to herself during an incredibly difficult time in her life. It’s been my mantra on days when I keep dwelling on the future and how I am going to prepare or respond to it. When I’m anxious/scared/discouraged/lost I tend to freeze like a fainting goat that’s been suddenly slapped on the bottom. I just kinda keel over and sleep…watch TV…and generally do absolutely nothing.

I can only speak for myself in this, but I don’t mentally, physically, or emotionally feel well when have too much down time. I think my brain gets bored and then it creates all sorts of problems. And I am most definitely at risk for this sort of numb state during this mandate to stay home.

Do the next right thing, one thing at a time.

I repeat that phrase to myself for encouragement to do the little things: Shower and change clothes.

I repeat that phrase to myself for encouragement to do the big things: Study for exams or work on the filing process for my taxes or unemployment.

Do the next right thing, one thing at a time.

I hope I’m not being too much of a realist when I say this, but…there is no end in sight. We have absolutely no idea when we will be able to go back to work and school and when the “Shelter in Place” order will be lifted. Could be days. But it could also be months.

So, I’m trying my hardest not to turn into a crazy person during all this đŸ˜›

P.S. My favorite meditation advocate is doing daily (weekdays) live “Sanity Breaks” on his site each day at 3pm EST if you need a little grounding and encouragement in your day. I’m really enjoying them so far and look forward to them each day.

We’re all in this together! (Cue the High School Musical dance)

With love and gratitude,

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