...it's certainly not a "yes", and it's most definitely a "not right now", which means what exactly am I supposed to do with myself??
Honestly, despite everything, it's been a really great day so far. The sun is shining and it's 90+ degrees outside. I've got my houseplants sunning on a ledge and a stack of chocolate chip cookies at my disposal. I've got smooth jazz in the background, my favorite candle beside me, and I can study for … Continue reading Coronatine Adventures – “The virtual doc visit. Say wut??” (Wednesday, March 25th)
When I workout at the Physical Therapy gym I get to look myself in the eye in a floor to ceiling mirror while doing some of the sequences. A couple weeks ago during a particularly difficult session, my mental strength was really starting to slip as my heart was pounding and sweat was dripping and I was getting just a tad bit dizzy from not breathing properly. In the mirror I could see my male PT (I have a female one I see as well) coming up behind me as I started to "cheat" more and more with each rep. I thought he would call me out instantly, but instead he dead eyed me in the mirror.
Did I tell you that I am back to working as a Physical Therapy aid/student observer during therapeutic riding sessions?
I'm laying on a table with my knees up like I'm about to get a pelvic exam as my physical therapist says (not quietly enough), "Now. Close your vagina. Contract your lower abdominals, and squeeze your butt cheeks."
All this newness has been weighing on me. Don't get me wrong, things are great - really great - but in the end all the changes and the "not having a place to call my own" is doing some damage. Definitely feeling some sadness and anxiety about everything. Speaking of new things, I absolutely HATE that I have to pay to drive on roads around here... And the longer you stay on that particular road the more they charge you! I have GOT to get one of those toll passes.
I was crazy nervous. No doubt about that. My voice was definitely shaky and my breathing was definitely not zen in the least, but somehow I held it together and I did the thing.
Notes during observation of Patients "A" and "B".
If you’re still struggling with a visual because you don’t spend much time around horses just keep in mind that I am 5’8” and if I am standing at the horses’ shoulders I struggle to see over them. You have a 150lb person sitting on a VERY tall horse riding along when all of a sudden your instructor yells “EMERGENCY DISMOUNT!!!” and within 2 seconds you have that same 150lb person hurtling towards you and you have to pull them off and away from the horse in one fell swoop.
There is probably a special section in the Laws for Dating that states that one must never allow any healthcare provider to accrue Crush Points.